this story stems from a reoccurring nightmare I had when I first started dating my partner. it really conflicted my brain, as it was very graphic in nature, hurtful to the soul, but also strangely arousing. I didn't know how to process it for the longest time, but I wrote it down, and today I can confidently say I still don't entirely know how to process it. I revisit it sometimes, clean it up a little bit here and there, as do I visit here too. I'm not really sure who this is for, but I do hope you get some semblance of entertainment out of it.